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Dreaming in Hindi by Katherine Russell Rich

384 pages; Houghton Mifflin

In a lionhearted attempt to shed her past—years of numbing jobs at glossy magazines and two life-threatening bouts with cancer—Katherine Russell Rich voyaged to India to learn Hindi, a language with one word, kal, for “yesterday” and “tomorrow.” Fortified with neuroscience and laced with humor (“A lover who speaks the language is a faster route to fluency than any tapes or courses, but perhaps more expensive”), Dreaming in Hindi (Houghton Mifflin Harcourt) is a crash course in emotional agility, in an understanding too deep for words.

Dreaming in Hindi: Prologue

*Throughout the piece, conversations that took place in Hindi are given in italicized English, to avoid taxing the reader’s patience with repeated translations.

One time in India, I appeared half naked in a temple, just up and flashed the worshippers. I surprised myself on the Lord God Shiva’s birthday. Surprised the celebrants, too, I’d say. This would have been a long time in, for by then I knew something of the language. I’d come in fact, to do just that, to learn the language. Originally, I’d imagined if I could it would be like cracking a code, a shimmering triumphant entry, but by now all this was was someone talking. I knew, for example, what a woman on the bus ride up to the temple town had whispered about me. “Gori!, Gori!,” she’d squeaked to a thin man in a dhoti pressed between us—Whitie! Whitie!—and I’d reflexively smiled at her surprise.

By then, I knew a lot of things easily: That the peeling dashboard stickers of a goddess on a tiger meant the bus driver was a devotee of Durga, for instance. Or what the Hindi was for “the languor has no tail due to an electrical accident,” one of the things a man in Western clothes, an engineer, said when we struck up a conversation outside the town’s main temple.

There used to be glorious gardens here, he told me. the palace of the winds at the top of the hill was the summer residence of kings, would you like to join us for Shiva’s birthday worship?—not one word jammed, the talk was purling, though every so often the man would excuse himself and slip into the temple, then re-emerge. The last time he appeared he was in a bright red lungi wrap, transformed from an engineer. A grizzled old man in a white lungi followed him.

You may join us but you must change your clothes. We don’t allow pants inside,” the old man, a pandit, a Brahmin priest, said. I said I’d be honored to be included.

See, Pandit-ji! She speaks good Hindi,” the engineer said, and the priest handed me a bundled white cloth, the makings of an impromptu sari. I eyed it warily. Any time I’d tried to wrap myself, the results had been unfortunate.

He directed me over a high step, into a sanctum containing statues of gods, where five men and a woman with grape-green eyes were seated in a circle. Further on, in a back room, I gave the cloth a try. I took off my jeans and draped myself, I thought, rakishly. But when I reappeared at the door, the Venus de Milo effect unravelled into strips, leaving my gori flanks exposed. The men gaped. The green-eyed woman barked out a reproof. Western women were known to flagrantly exhibit themselves. The pandit abruptly ordered me out of the room, commanded the woman to follow and lend a hand.

I worried I’d irrevocably disgraced myself, but once she’d snugly fitted me, the priest waved me back to the circle. He was solicitous throughout the ceremony, through the hours we kneeled on the cold stone floor and my knees turned to points of stabbing pain. He guided my hands onto copper bowls, onto my neighbors, at the necessary moments. We washed the gods in milk, honey, curds, water and ghee. He continually chanted their names, and I blinked to find myself sinking into what seemed like a far center I’d always known. This place was greenly translucent, soothing, universal, like the water in the pool where as a child I’d nearly drowned and hadn’t, till I surfaced, been afraid. But the sudden merger with the infinite skewered my earthly activities. Lulled, I tipped a bowl of water onto a deity’s head.

Dhire! Dhire! the devotees cried: Slowly! Slowly! We are giving the god a bath.

Incense spiralled up like djinns. We rubbed the gods with sugar. We garlanded them with marigolds, as people leaned on the step and peered in. The gawkers lit more sandalwood sticks, left oranges as offerings, asked what was going on in there. There was a foreigner?

Her Hindi is good,” the devotees informed them the first hour.

Her Hindi is very good,” the devotees said in the second, though my known repertoire had not expanded much beyond What was that?

The third hour, a new man joined us, glanced over, said something. “Haan,” the priest sai. Yes. “She is fluent.”

That was Sanskrit he was speaking!” the devotees exclaimed after each of the priest’s rumbled chants. “Very old,” the priest concurred, holding up a text the size and shape of a comic book, breaking to provide me with some tutelage in the classics. Then the green-eyed woman produced small outfits hemmed in tinsel, and we carefully dressed the gods.

Afterward, with the thick grainy smell of ghee in our hair, the worshipers clamored to explain that the ceremony was older than Buddhism, than Jainism, than Christianity. “It is only once a year,” a man said, adding I was lucky to have arrived there on the day. “And after, you feel so peaceful, ” another man said of the four hours’ of pure devotion. “By doing this, you keep the world happy,” he said, though the exact verb he used was more like, “set.”

What follows is a story about setting the world happy, about the strange, snaking course devotion can take. It’s about what happens if you allow yourself to get swept away by a passion. The short answer is this: inevitably, at some point, you come unwrapped.

It’s a story about a stretch of time I spent in India, learning to speak another language. Since that year was an exceptionally violent and fragmenting one, not only in India, but throughout the world, it’s a story that sometimes turns brutal, maybe even despite its best intentions. This book, the way I’d conceived it before I left, was going to be solely about the nearly mystical and transformative powers of language: the way that words, with no more than the tensile strength of breath, can tug you out of one world and land you in the center of another. This is a story, as it turned out, that’s about transformation, yes, but is also about the destructive power of words—the way they can reshape people, can leave them twisted, can break and obliterate them. It’s about language as passport and as block.

Since the book is concerned with language, with one person’s attempts to learn another one, and since the person in question, ie, me, is not a blazing supernatural talent in that department, I think I should probably allow this right up front. I’m not that great, naturally, at learning other tongues. I simply love the process. When my mother traveled, she liked to eat her way through a place. Her trip journals were all about meals, never sights: Got up at 8. Went to the French quarter for beignets. At 11 had shrimp remoulade at Christian’s. “I speak menu,” she’d say. Me, when I travel, I just want to speak. I’ve always been fascinated by language in any form, the more unintelligible, the better. When I get on a plane, I lose myself in the vocabulary section of the guidebook, not excluding the sentences for businessmen. I can cite favorite lines from various lists. Is vakt sattewalon ne is chiz par kabza kar liya hai, from the Cambridge Self Hindi Teacher, is a good one: “Speculators have for the moment seized on this article.” Cambridge stands out because it breaks form, which requires that the travelers’ sentences be kept jaunty. It allows a measure of melancholy, even existentialism. “Unfortunately they are in such a bad condition we can’t accept them.” “The date of the arrival does not matter much.” This is a quality I think sets it apart, though others might argue.

I love a lot of things about language study. I love the way it can make you feel like a spy, the covert glimpses it provides into worlds that were off limits, even the confounding difficulties, the tests it puts you to. For the purposes of this book, I interviewed a former Fulbright, a linguist named A. L. Becker, who knew Burmese, Thai, Old Javanese and Malay. “I sometimes think I study these things,” he said, “because I have such a hard time with it,” and I nodded emphatically. Also for this book, I interviewed a number of neurolinguists and people who study the science of language acquisition, for at the same time that I developed a passion for Hindi, a corresponding obsession kicked in: to understand what learning a second language does to the brain. The process, for me, was so frustrating and exhilarating and at times transcendent, all in a way that felt deeply corporeal, I could only believe that it was scrambling my brains. What I learned was that to some extent, a second language does. It makes you not quite yourself.

This might explain the pattern I observed when I first began taking lessons. People would exclaim, “My daughter’s doing that! She was having trouble first year at Smith and had to drop out for a semester and so she’s decided to study Mandarin!” Someone else had retired and was learning Basque in a chat room. Another, reeling from a break-up, was hot in pursuit of Greek. Conjugants, I began to think of us. I’m sorry to have to report to the Modern Languages Association that in monolingual America, no one much past school age seems to take up a language when their lives are going gangbusters, that it’s a preoccupation of the disoriented. I’ve a feeling the same principle might apply to any pursuit that demands you start over as a beginner, given all the stories I’ve heard—of the divorces and dislocations that resulted in people learning, finally, how to swim, or play chess, or play the piano. Mandarin, mandolin—in a way, it’s the same thing. You embrace pursuits like these as an adult, I think, as a kind of transfer when your life has snapped you into another place, when you’ve had to start over in some way. By immersing yourself as a beginner in a realm that’s more controllable than your now-unwieldy and sorry whole existence, you keep yourself in one piece, at least in one place. The impulse is probably a perverted survival mechanism, but so what?

In my own case, I took up with Hindi at a time when it seemed my life had buckled out from under me. I’d been fired from a magazine job and come to a reckoning: I really didn’t want to do this any more. And since, other than early forays into hostessing at Roy Rogers’, magazine editing is all I’d ever done and past the age of sixteen ever wanted to, I was disoriented in the extreme. I’d always been passionate about the business. As a kid in the straitening suburbs of Philadelphia, I’d hoped to be either an archeologist, a circus performer, or a poet. Magazine work, when I hit on that idea, seemed like it might in some ways combine the best of all three. You’d dig deep into culture, perform high wire acts with deadlines. And you’d be immersed in lyricism of a kind, wouldn’t you?

Not necessarily, or not at the glossy journals where I ended up, or not so far as I could see, twenty years on, when a chant had begun to loop through my head—I want to lead a more artistic life. I’d looked around then and saw how my life, long set in this direction, was turning out. At 37, I had an extensive collection of give-away moisturizers; as the second most geriatric person on staff, I’d been required to test them. I had stacks of review copies of books I never read, for my evenings were taken up with rounds of business parties and merchandizing events that blurred together. I had a closetful of shoes that were unnervingly expensive and a cat with bizarre proclivities, a kind of foot fetish, I’d say. The cat liked to eat the toes off leather high heels, but only the finest ones, only the Manolo Blahniks. I’d come home and find him on his back in the closet, cradling one half of a gnawed pair, a sated, crazed gleam in his eye. I couldn’t say what psychological derangement was spurring him, but I could see this was a sign.

By the time, a few years later, when I was fired from the place that required on-the-job moisturizing, my life no longer made any kind of sense to me. Not bedrock, regenerative sense. Compounding this state of feeling uprooted from my existence while still in it, I’d had several encounters with a serious illness. That, then, is the place where I’d arrived, first time I took a Hindi lesson:

I no longer had the language to describe my own life. So I decided I’d borrow someone else’s.

Excerpted from Dreaming in Hindi by Katherine Russell Rich, copyright © 2009. Reprinted by permission of Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company. All rights reserved.

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